Then he asked me; What does that mean..

What's another word for desperate?

Repetition makes an impression.
What's another word for desperate?
I won't be around here for too very long.


This song is stuck in my head a lot, it's fun to sing to, too..
So is the ending part of 'You Know How I Do' by Taking Back Sunday. I had it on repeat earlier.. I kept singing Nolan's parts..

' Think of all the fun you had.
The finest line divides a night well spent from a waste of time.
Think of all the days you spent alone with just your T.V. set and I,
I can barely smile.'

I posted the pictures on myspace

If you're not friends with me there, then you're out of luck..
Unless, of course, you add me. (Which most of you already have)

http://www.myspace.com/brittany804

Had to leave early.

(This is continued from the Circa Survive post)

Sadly.. I Left like 40 minutes early because Tanya needed to wake up early the next day, and Daniel was locking Candis out of the house and refusing to let her in.

But.. Like 5 minutes before we left, this girl screamed, 'Anthony, I want to have your babies!' he was like 'You want to have my babies...? You don't want to have my children, they'd be toxic' haha.. Then a second later he was like 'Wait, that sounds wrong..'

It was funny, and cute.

I took pictures with a couple of the guys, I think I should post it.. Then I'd be able to PROVE that I've gotten huge.. and ugly.. If I put them up, no laughing please.. :)

Circa Survive

Ahh Such a sweet band..

they're really friendly, and funny.

We had a little trouble going backstage at first, because we're under 18.. Once the staff settled things out we went back, then went into a room, and they came up to us, said their names, shook our hands, ahaha when Nick tried shaking my hand I messed it up, he tried doing this weird handshake, and I accidentally didn't let him. I looked dumb. ahahah.

When I first saw Anthony I yelled 'Bunny!' aloud, he looked at me funny, and I felt dumb. But then a second later we all started talking and I felt a little better. I wore my favorite jacket, and Anthony was like 'Oh, is that an owl on your jacket?' Then he pointed at it, I said yes, with a big smile, and he was like 'Ohhh, I likeee it.' It was really cute..

He's so friendly, ahaha and flirty. It's adorable..

He was eating a plain avocado, and everyone else around was like 'dude, that's weird, don't you want anything with it..? Like soy sauce, or salt?' Then he replied with 'no, salt is bad for you, and I used all my soy sauce for my paintings' haha that made me laugh.. They paint, and raffle it off at shows.. So sometime tonight one an original soy sauce painting. haha. A second later, Anthony looked at me, and was like 'Want a bite' It caught me off guard, I said no thanks, but my sister might want a bite. ahah.. She said no.. Man I wish I had said yes.. I totally lost my mind while talking to them.

Casey from Dear Hunter was EXTREMELY nice, too.. haha..

When I first met him, he was like, 'I'm Casey, I'm morbidly obese, which makes me unimportant.' I was so shocked that I couldn't say anything. But of course he's important.. he was really nice. hahaha.

They asked me and Katrina how old we were, I said I'm 17, And she's 14. Then they asked if we were in high school, I said she was in high school, and I'm in college, and Casey was like 'whoa, hold up.. You're 17, and in college!?' I tried to explain about running start, but I stopped when Anthony said 'It's because she's a genius' haha. I had to disagree with that, So I said 'Actually, I'm really stupid' after that, a new conversation started. I'm sure I looked dumb calling myself dumb, but I do it a lot. Only because it's true. Then they asked if we lived in Seattle, I said 'No, I wish I did though.' Then they asked if we came to seattle or shows a lot, again I said that I wished I did, but I don't get the chance of that..because it's far away from where I live.. Nick asked where we're from, I said Gig Harbor.. For some reason, they heard 'Hick Harbor' And said "Whoa.. A city called 'Hick Harbor!?'" haha me and my sister started laughing and tried a few times to say 'No, GIG Harbor, Not Hick' haha.. Then they asked where it was, and how far, I said pretty far, Katrina said two hours. Then they asked what it was near.. I paused, I know what it's near.. Tacoma.. I didn't want to say that because I didn't want them to think I lived in a city like Tacoma, because I don't.. Gig Harbor is NOTHING like Tacoma.. NOTHING. So I Muttered Port Orchard and Bremerton.. haha. Nick asked if I drove here, I explained that I can't drive, even though I'm 17... Then Casey mentioned that he didn't start driving until 18, himself. It made me feel more comfortable, and less of a loser. haha. I Explained that my guardian took us, and they were like 'Oh, that's REALLY nice, tell her we said thank you' They said stuff like that a few times before we left. haha it was great.. they like really appreciated us coming out to the show..


I got all nervous when I got backstage, and I didn't know what to say.

I thought I was hiding it pretty well, but once we left the backstage, my sister, Katrina was like 'You were totally weird in there' haha I didn't even know. I still don't.. When I think back, I see myself being shy, but not weird. aha.

Ok.. Good Enough for now.. :)

One week

I can make one week,
I've done it before,
I'll do it again,
this time it'll stick.

Circa Survive tonight.
I'm wondering if I should bring my camera or not..

Is School Done With Yet?

I keep waiting last minute to do everything.
I can't motivate myself to stay ahead.
This is college, I can't fall behind, I can't fail. I Can't.
And if I do, then what. What'll happen?
Hmm. Well.. I'll Probably be held back a year, that's what will happen.

Oh, when this quarter is over I will officially have all my required credits in order to graduate.
But that doesn't mean I can fail, next quarter. I still have to pass those Civics classes that have to do with volunteer work and senior projects, that is.. if I want to graduate in 2008, anyway.. Make sense... It's a requirement, but not..?
haha uncool.

Want to know what class I dislike, most?

Scratch that, It's an even tie for all of them but one.

And what is the one I actually enjoy getting up early for?

Ok, I'll tell you. It's Guitar.

:)

I hate when I keep posting blogs.

I hate it even more when I see that someone actually reads them.
aha. My blogs aren't funny, or even extremely weird.. Why do people read them..? Half the time I don't even reread my posts because they're that boring.

I leave for work in a few hours.. and odds are I'll be terminated tonight.
I'm scared, I'll admit it.. I don't want to be fired. Not yet.

Matthew Thiessen wrote me today, he's too sweet..
He helps me build up confidence.
I love that I can depend on him..
Whenever I'm down, I read something from him to feel better.
It usually works, too.

He actually cares.
This is one of the reasons he's my hero.
I really hope I'll have the chance to meet him someday.